As I journey my way through life, in my everyday encounters, I can feel myself creating an E! True Hollywood Story in my mind. From the shade of lipstain I decide to wear, to the people I meet, the hands I shake, and the soundtrack to the moments. I can feel myself internally recording each moment so as to not forget it in the future. The faces are engraved in my mind, the dreams are slowly becoming a reality, and it's time to be an adult.
I subliminally take note of the moment that I meet people, so as to store it away in a rolodex for later retrieval. As I go to shake their hand, or hug their familiar being, I think of the possible futures we will have. For this may be the only time we meet, it could be my next best friend, a future employer, or perhaps, just maybe, my future boyfriend or husband. That's the cool and crazy thing about life -- we can't predict it. Even now, as The Morning Benders' soothing vibes fill the speakers of my Mac, I cannot tell you how I will feel about this song in the future. I cannot tell you if I will meet someone who is completely taken over by these melodies the way that I am. The coin has been tossed, it's in the air, and who knows what side it will land on. And that's okay.
Every so often I try to take control of these unknowns -- creating lists, handcrafting scenarios of right and wrong -- yet, I still find no answers. I tense up, my mind swims with the endless possibilities, and I may even cry a bit. I run to the kitchen to tell my mother of my stresses, she listens, she calms me down, and reminds me that it's okay not to know everything. It's okay to be unsure, and to jump into a situation with your whole heart, and feel overwhelmed. That's the beauty of the unknown that's the beauty of life's moments. After the calm of the worries, I dry my tears, journal a little, and then become inspired to work harder toward my goals. That's all I can do. For there is no magic eight ball to guide me along this path, there is no "pass go- collect 200 dollars." This isn't the game of life, you do not roll the dice to receive your career and earnings. Life is not that simple, it's much more fun.
So, in an instant when you're feeling lost or lonely, or just unsure of what's happening around you... stop, reflect, and breathe. The key is to allow time to reflect. Reflect on your day, your choices, your life, and those around you. We will never be able to have all the answers, no one does. And you know what, that's the beauty of life -- so go out and live it! In the great words of The Avett Brothers, "Decide what to be and go be it."
