So, I was kinda being emotional, and a typical girl, and was thinking... Why can't life be like those romantic old fairytale-type movies? I know times change, and things get more complex, people become more corrupted with society, and aim to please the image of the celebutants on television, but what happened to originality? What happened to simplicity, and wholesome, good lives? For the record, I am not about to preach anything, promise-- Who am I to say anything? I just kinda had some thoughts floating around. Maybe it was watching those cutesy Disney Channel movies, or just living life... but I got to thinking. Do these moments that are so glorified and remembered in movies, really happen? Does the girl always get the guy in the end? Is there always exceptions to the "rules"? Do guys really randomly like you, while having never talked to you, look you up in the yearbook, and show up outside a church where you're at for your sister's wedding, leaning against his red sports car, waiting. waiting, for you? Can you really go twenty-something years without ever being kissed, pretend to be a high school student, then fall in love with the high school english teacher? And do guys really fall for their best girl friend, and never tell them, and just watch at the sidelines while she hurts the guy? Hmmm... forreal, does it happen?
I know I can't really say I've ever seen any of this happen in real life. But the movies make it look magical, like modern-day fairytales. But who says these things couldn't happen in real life? Are there really guys who still like to impress girls, who just want to be in the company of a girl he likes, and take her to the fair? Guys who will lay in the grass to stair into the midnight sky next to a girl? A guy who isn't afraid to slow dance in public, or under the glow of the moon? Guys who want to take strolls through town with his crush, and want to go to the movies with her to watch the movie, and hold hands? Does any of this exist? Or are all guys chumps who want to go mack on ladies at the club, or get waisted at parties? Are there still gentlemen out there: who open the car doors for women, who hold the doors for strangers, who say "thank you" and "sorry", do these guys exist, is chivalry dead? Or are they all "players" with one thing in mind? I'm just curious. I know that I can be naive at times-- but I'd still like to think that gentlemen and nice women actually still exist. Maybe that's just me. Maybe I'm the only one who wishes they were in a John Hughes film, maybe I'm the only one who wishes Landon from A Walk To Remember would want to change his ways for a girl. Maybe I'm the only one who wants to have simple fun like they do in those Disney Channel movies. Maybe I need to stop worrying about all of this. I mean sometimes I just feel weirded out by the fact that I'm like the next "Never Been Kissed", I know I am no Drew Barrymore, and I wasn't called "Josie Grossie" in HIgh School, but come on... I'm going to be 19 in a few weeks, and I've never had a boyfriend, and never had my first kiss. How foreign?! I'm not saying I'm having a pity party for myself, but sometimes I think I'm different than all the other girls. But then again, I know I am different than all the other girls, and I am proud of it. I'm special, and I know my values, I know who I am, and I know my boundaries. I know how to handle myself, and I guess you could say I am secure with my childlike innocence. I'm perfectly okay with who I am. It's just sometimes when you hear about how the good girls are the one's that guys will want to marry... how long am I gonna have to wait??! Ugh. Oh well... as they say, only time will tell.
I never used to worry about guys and wether they liked me, but now that I'm finishing my freshman year of college, I think: am I some weirdo? I have a lot of friends, both guys and girls... but nothing more. I'm quite alright with that, I am secure enough with myself and my life to not really be bothered by it. It's just sometimes I wish I had a real best friend who I could hold hands with, text anytime randomly about nothing, and we could just enjoy spending time together. I'm not greedy, I don't want him to buy me things. I'd rather go spend time listening to great music at a concert: don't buy me the ticket, just enjoy the experience with me. I don't need someone to buy me clothes, jewelry and purses to impress me... just take an interest in my interests. Just be yourself, and I'll do the same: I'll be the weird, quirky, sometimes fabulously loud, random, big-haired girl with too many clothes from thrift stores, and has a good heart and a huge bow in her hair.
I don't really know why I got all personal with this blog, I guess you should be able to see all the sides of me. I usually don't reveal my personal side, especially to strangers. But who cares, I'm real... makes me think of a J.Lo song :) Anyway... it's not like I'm going to be sitting at home eating and becoming besties with Ben&Jerry over the weekend, these were just some thoughts I had. I kind of was just thinking about all this for a few days, and like I said, I watched way too many movies over the break. Maybe I am Tom from (500) Days Of Summer, but at least he had a Summer? Oh well. Don't feel sorry for me. I am happy with my life, and I am focusing on the important things: Family, friends, school, etc... I have too much going on and to be happy for already, to not enjoy life. Just some things got me thinking about all of this. This would have been one of the entries featured in my personal journal, but I'll just post it for everyone to read! haha Oh so in conclusion... Be thankful for life: Live, Love and be Happy. :) But why can't life happen like it does in the movies. But nothing in life is easy and we learn from our mistakes.
...Just some more random thoughts from Coco's Hair.
Why can't couples be cutesy, like this song:
